Fighting the body
I still went to work dispite feeling sick. Partly because I have some stuff that need to be completed by friday. Another reason is because I have a dinner appointment at fullerton later that night that I don't wish to miss. That why I tried to push on dispite feeling uncomfortable.
I'm always lucky to get a seat on MRT at Jurong East. The train only gets crowded when it reaches woodlands. And as always, there are some old folks on the train without seat. Usually, I will offer my seat to them. But that day, I wish someone would do me a favor and offer his/her seat to the old man. Really not feeling well and need to sit down and rest. But sad to say, nobody offered their seats. So I offered my seat to a old gentleman and move to the side of the train where it is less crowded. Feel like vomitting thru out the journey. Deep inside my mind, I was already planning where to puke in order to cause the least damage. I'm glad I didn't need to put my plan into use.
Bought a bottle of Eno. This is the first time in my life that I drank Eno. It does helps a bit. But I was still feeling quite uncomfortable. The body seems like fighting a war inside. I seem to be on the losing end.
Many time, I feel like surrendering, go see a doctor and take MC. But I kept asking myself to push on. Didn't manage to complete much work. And I discovered today that I actually made a few careless mistakes while attempting to work when sick. Luckily it is still in testing phrase.
Rested for a while at my desk after lunchtime. Somehow, it doesn't seem to help much. The rest only made my body feel weaker. At least its comforting that a colleague walk over to ask if I'm alright. Thanks.
The mind keep asking myself to give up the battle and go back home. But I didn't. Made countless trip to the toilet. The toilet cleaner must have discovered a sudden increase in the usage of toilet paper. But I still managed to last thru the day and attend the dinner talk. I had steak at the dinner. And to make things worst, I ordered a glass of red wine. Come on, how can I have steak without red wine?
I really thought that I would fall sick today. Already mentally prepared to see the doctor in the morning. But I was rather surprised that I woke up feeling much better.
The fight with the body is over. I'm glad I've won.