Several things happen last week. I almost wanted to submit my resignation letter on Monday. But I thought maybe I should submit on the first day of the month. Then HR send out an email to inform us that the company will be giving out a special bonus at the end of June as the company is doing well. Its not a large sum of money. But that amount can last me for at least a few weeks. So I told myself I'll resign only after the bonus.
A lot of people gave me their opinions when they knew my decision. A lot of them advice me to take option 1 or 3 instead of 2. But my mind was rather fixed on option 2. I tried to explain why I'm taking option 2 to everyone who spoke to me.
And I thought I made up my mind until I had dinner with someone recently and we discuss my plans.
She said that my plans of taking up freelance and expanding towards that area is good, but do I really need to quit my current job? Do I really need to go unemployed for several months just to pick up the skill? I could still hold a full time job and study for the things if I manage my time well. And she said that I should use this time to learn about time management. Cause if I don't then I'll fail in everything I do in the future.
I tried to explain to her the reason for quitting. As I was explaining, I suddenly notice something. I just wanted to get out of the job that I hated. I want to go into web programming. But I don't need to be unemployed to pick up the skill. All those explanations are just excuses. Excuses for me to get out of my current job fast. If I hate the job, just find a new job.
I didn't go home straight after the dinner and coffee. Instead, I went for a stroll by the Singapore river bay. I kept thinking of the conversation that we had. It will be a big challenge. To continue to work while picking up a skill and doing freelance. And I'm still doing my part time degree course too. But its a good chance for me to learn the life lesson of time management.
And I come up with new plans on what I plan do to:
Pick up web programming skills
Take up some freelance project.
Built a network and portfolio.
Do all these while keeping myself employed. But I should really change a job.
Its going to be tough. Especially when I'm still doing my part time degree. But if I can't handle this, I won't be able to handle the greater things that I'm aiming for in the future.